'Tis better to have love and lost than to have never loved. ♥♥♥

I was looking at some of your pictures.
Bought back fond memories of being with you.
I promised that I will never miss you ever again.
I promised myself that I will move on.
I might have, or I might not have.

I may not have still love you, I don't know.
But the fact remains that I still care about you, whether or not you want me to care.
You were the first one I loved.
But like all great things, it must come to an end.
You look good by the way.

I don't think that you will even get the chance to read this blog post.
Though it's not as if you even know how I feel.
Whatever it is, I wish you well.
May all your dreams come true.
Take good care of yourself, until you find the one who will take care of you.


I have finally feel liberated from all my pain for you.
I feel that I can now truly move on.
And with these final words to you, I bade you farewell.
I love you.




Liberated at,
9.17am
11th November 2009

COMPLICATIONS ♥♥♥

Complications.

Complication #1

K thinks I still love A while A assumes I'm over him because A is in love with S.
Meanwhile J is in love with K but K is over J (I think).
Then K also thinks that Im flirting my ass off with E but E is delusional that E think I like K.


Complication #2

M and everyone else thinks I like C while D is joking about me liking M and L is afraid that I might adore him but is speculating me and M. Me and DD are not in good terms but people think we're alright. Meanwhile I treat everyone as friends.

Conclusion
Only God knows what the hell the people in my life are thinking.
More than half of the complications and assumptions are untrue.
In every situation, all parties don't communicate and do not know what's the real story.




Complicated at,
1.35am
6th November 2009

AND THE FAT LADY SINGS ♥♥♥

I may not have been yours to begin with.
But I know that deep inside I was special to you at the time.
You may not have shower me with attention or show me off to everyone you know.
But I know I was special to you.
So were you to me.

Maybe I was the stupid one for not holding on to you tighter back then.
I did not prove myself by fighting for you.
And now that BITCH has her slimy octopus hands wrapped all around you.
I really wish I could turn back time and get you back.
But even if I could turn back time, I would have wanted you back anymore.

Knowing your taste was that bad that you would go for her in the future.
I cannot be with a person who is so cheap in taste and such a womaniser.
Or maybe it was a test of my love for you ?
I do not know. But we have moved on now.
We are both very different now and I would want you anymore.

And so now I must bid you farewell.
I shall leave your life as much as I ever could without hurting myself.
And may you and your current slut live happily together until she finds a better looking bastard child to be with and you find a sluttier bitch to womanise.
And then you shall all die a slow and painful death.
You both shall then burn in the burning fire in the pits of hell.

Sorry I was ever special to you.



In pain at,
10.59pm
31th October 2009

Twisted Reality ♥♥♥

Some people can be so delusional sometimes.
They think that they rule the world.

F.Y.I., you' not the only important one in the world.
You may hang out with your little possie, you may laugh and talk alot.
Everyone knows you and your possie.
But you don't realise it's because you are so loud, it gets irritating to everyone around you.
You think that you are the only one that matters.

I can understand that you should have the freedom to do as you wish without conforming.
However, you need to take a step back and look around you.
You need to see that you're very insignificant compared to everyone else.
There are so many people everywhere, around you, you're only one person.

You do not take other people's feelings into consideration.
You do not understand the importance of putting another being before you.
You command popularity, but not respect sadly.
I have gotten so fed-up with all your nonsense.
If you have to be so uncaring towards how other people feel, I'm sorry, I cannot hold you close and dear to me.

The things you do, the things you say.
You always think that the other is the one at the wrong.
But you couldn't stop admiring your big fat ego long enough to step back from the mirror and see that you're the one over-dramatising nothing and making it into something of an issue.

Unfortunately, there are people in my life that this post is actually directed to.
However, I will refuse to mention names.
The targeted ones will not know they're the ones being mentioned. (egos too HUGE)

Everyone else, try not to make anyone in your life feel this way about you.
It is hurtful, not just to you, but to the person who feels this way.




Fuming at,
11.22pm
28th October 2009

Emptiness Envelops ♥♥♥

What happens when you are at wit's end ?
What happens when you feel like it's the end of the world ?
What happens when you were trying to get back up on your feet but something comes and knock you back down ?
What happens when you so wish to end your life but you cant ?

Have you ever feel like you are so pressured and stressed that you would go to great lengths to avoid it ?
Have you ever had your means of escape be torn away from you in a cruel joke ?
Have you ever feel that you've never been loved before ?



Bleeeding at,
1.16am
24th October 2009

OMIGOSH OMIGOSH OMIGOSH ♥♥♥

omg wei........
It has been so long since i updated this blog of mine.
I have just been so distracted by so many things lately.
studies, tests, family, friends.
haiz..............

But i promise I will update something soon...
I hope....
you know what, don't expect any updates anytime soon.
If i do update, i will bug you all to come read it.

Ciaoz.


Buzzing at,
1.49am
12th October 2009

5 Stabs to the Heart ♥♥♥

I give it all up,
I'm taking back my love,
I've given you too much,
I'm taking back my love,
- Enrique Inglesias ; Taking Back my love -

I use to be love drunk,
But now I'm hungover,
I love you forever,
Forever is over,
- Boys Like Girls ; Love Drunk -

Unbreak my heart,
Say you'll love me again,
Undo this hurt you caused,
When you walked out the door,
And walked out of my life,
Uncry these tears,
I cried so many nights,
Unbreak my heart,
- Toni Braxton ; Unbreak My Heart -

5 Stabs to the Heart ♥♥♥

5 STABS TO THE HEART

You came into my life and breathe fresh air into it.
I haven ever known love till I have known you.
I never understand what it feels like to love and be loved.
Not till I met you.

We made beautiful memories.
We were happy, though only briefly.
But now, it's all over.
I can't turn back time.

It hurts so much to be this way.
Seeing you in the arms of another.
5 Stabs to the heart.
Why was I so stupid for ever letting you go?

And no matter what I do, I cannot get you back.
I cried and I cried for you.
But still the pain persists.
5 painful wounds in the heart.

You had no idea that you could have hurt me so.
I'm grieving over losing you.
Yet you are so oblivious.
I am still trying to get over you.

And now I am but a changed person.
I will never be the same ever again.
Though not sure if I can forget you.
Should I wish you all the best ?

I used to be love drunk,
But now I'm hungover,
I love you forever,
Forever is over.
- Boys Like Girls ; LoveDrunk -

Though it is not me you wrap your arms around,
I will not hate you nor the one you now love.
I shall not curse you and her in the future,
But I will also not wish you all the best.

You left me scarred for life.
And now I bade you farewell.
The only thing I ask of you is that you don't forget me.
You will always have a very important place in my heart.


5 STABS TO THE HEART

Hurt and Wounded at,
1.53am
1st October 2009